.breathe slow.

they say in life, things change people move on.they say, you have to adapt to the change not the change adapt to you.and they will always say, life goes on.

but what if all change is happening at too short a period of time?what if im struggling to adapt to everything at once?when everyone else is moving on and i am still stuck here?

i don't have the strength anymore to see more change.to witness episod after episod of event happening.im tired of seeing people leave, to make do with whats left and to start anew.

because for once,i want to be the one to leave behind everything, to move on.i want to see how they'll do without me.i want to be the change that i want to be.

i feel like crying.i wonder why.when its someone else who's leaving,its someone else who's forced to leave, its someone else who's heartbroken.

i need to breath slow.i need to close my eyes and drown in my fantasies.before i open my eyes and come back to reality.

the bitter reality of life.