juz imagine ma ecstacy screaming ma lungs out wit food stil hanging inside ma mouth like hell's gonna break loose n jumpin up n down like nobody's business when gurmit announced dat paul twohill got thru da next round!! yes.i was overjoyed.he's soo oh-ma-gawd~!im becumin a fanatic of hm.god help me pls~! n jonathan.oh gosh.his voice cn juz melt away every gurl's heart.oh-so-sexy beybeh~!aww!

afta dat.i was quiet all da way.bcoz.of sum reasons i dun wish to disclose.isit called sacrifice?i duno.isit unfair?i hav no comments bout it.

tis morn i went out wit mummy n lil sis to da lib coz she wanted to study fer her exam.i spent haf a day dere juz readin a book.n i've got a quarter left to finish.then,i went up to da 4th floor coz i thought of borrowing a malay book.went to dat section n i saw these familiar hkss sec 3 boys' faces.so,i juz went on findin a book coz i noe dey wun mind.

i then realised dat dere's another person sittin in frnt of me tokin on da phone.he's nt frm ma scool.n i duno hm.n i dun wish to get to noe hm.firz sentence dat came out of his mouth when i saed 'sorry ehk.' was

'eh,bdk mlyu ehk?'(wat?do i luk like a chinese or even indian to u?!!)

afta dat,he went on askin,

'dik,scola mane ehk?'(doesn't he noe i hav a guy??no,wait.of cos he doesnt noe.wth.)

i ignored hm n went to da shelf on da other side.i bent down to find a book.then he asked again.

'dik,scola mane?'(shut da hell up!go ask those sec 3 boys lah!)

i stood up,ignored hm n juz walked away.

finali,he saed.

'eh,die lari plak.'(yes.bcoz u r bein such an asshole!period.)

i was soo fucked up bcoz of dat.i hav no fuckin idea y.i mean its like here i am missing ma guy like fuck n haven't been mitin hm fer god-noes-hw-long n dere u r tryin to flirt wit me?!?!hu da hell do u tink u r?!!n those sec 3 ppl shld wel noe hu i am.y cldn't dey juz tel dat asshole which scool im frm n shut his fuckin trap?!?!go get sum other bitch to flirt wit!hu fucking cares if u've got a 'tiam' niwae?!urgh~!!

i juz duno y i muz b soo pissed off over dat stupid thang.im tryin hard to hide ma emotions,pretendin dat im kewl wit goin out wit ma mum instead of ma guy.a small part of me jzu wanted to explode afta dat incident.i juz cun help it.i cun take it ani longer.damn~i hate to b feelin like dis.he's goin off 2ml.n i wun b able to c hm b4 dat.isit unfair or wat?i juz duno hw im gona survive witout hm.urgh~!