i woke up tis morn wit a burnin determination.afta i read his msg last nite,im more than determined to do much beta fer da cumin prelims n da o levels.da mid yr results suck.i dun even bother to post it up.bt,ma class n level position improved a bit though.urgh~hu cares bout positions?ma agg r werse.damn~

im disappointed wit maself.i thought i cld do wel fer da mid yrs.i thought i cld prove to hm n ma parents dat i cn handle relationship n studies at da same time.i guess im wrong.he has faith in me.n i blew it.bcoz.truthfully,sumtimes i cun cncntrate on wat im studyin.shittos.im sorie.i rili am.bt,then.no use cryin over spilled milk.take tis as a lesson n stepping stone towerds success in da more-improtant exams.

juz a thought.wld u break up wit ur partner so dat u cn cncentrate fully on ur studies?it may b a lil bit far-fetched.bt,i dun want ma parents to want me to break tis relationship so dat i cld cncentrate beta fer ma studies.no,i dun want to.oh,heck.take all tis thoughts away.shoo2~everytime dey cmplain bout ma marks,i'll argue back wit them sayin others r werse off than me or dat da ppr was difficult.sheesh~


i guess mummy wun b happy wit wat i get.heck,she's always nt satisfied wit wataver i got.of,cos.i was nvr gd enuf in her eyes.hw i wish she noes hw hurtin it is fer me.