mornin ma dear ppl.jzu returned frm eatin breakfast at mac wit bro.great bein wit hm.cn becum craziee.laugh2.joke2.dats wh close we r.yea.so,last nite daddy was angry wit over wat i saed.da ting is i told mummy on da phone dat its better if i dun get scholarship money.so dat daddy wun get to take ma money again.mummy terbilang daddy wat i saed.so,all nite he did not tok to me.nk step majuk.urgh.mummy asked me to say sorry to hm.i was like,no way!no way am i gona apologise over sumtin i've nt done worng.i mean,hw long am i gona pretend dat i like hm takin ma money dat i've worked hard to get n nt return back?haish.im tired of havin to fight wit daddy again n again.haiz.bestie-bestie wrote in her blog dat im too gd fer hm,dat he doesnt deserve me.i noe wat she's tryin to say.i noe she doesnt want me to end up like wat bestie almost did.haish.coz he's not dat nice a guy outside.bt i noe dt watever it is,he's gd to me.n dats all i ask fer.haiz.i've alreadi fallen fer hm.i tried to hate hm.tried to ferget hm.bt all dat fail.i dun want hm to b waitin fer me liek sum idiot.he asked me.y do i stil wana be in cntact wit hm.he gav me a choice.i cn cntinue to be in touch wit hm.or he cn let go of me.lpskn aku.haiz.da onli thang dat refrains me frm acceptin hm is.is.im afraid dat i wil nt be able to change hm fer da better.seriously,do i deserve a better guy?coz i feel dat i cn nvr find a guy much better than hm.haiz.if onli he's nt liek dat.if.onli.